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Max- The Legend of 1900

my north cemetery shoot did not go as how i expected it to be. one of the model did not arrive who was suppose to wear the bride's maid dress- which i don't really care as i'm having trouble as to how i'm going to incorporate the bride's maid in the theme that i conceptualize. instead, i asked jona as an extra- supposed to wear casual wear. i have 4 looks on my head, audrey hepburn, morticia addams and two 19th century chick. more than anything, i am more excited about this concept than the marriage theme litratoz guild organize, as it is more restricting and the only variation that i can get is movement and facial expression. 

argh! i was rooting for a high fashion editorial-ish...

but because of security constraints, we were compelled to shoot for only 2 hrs in n.cemetery, and as a result of it, the casual wear was put out of the scene and i cannot just enforce my own way as i am in a group.

another disappointment was the groom, he is too effeminate and something is quite wrong about his expression, like someone who is pissed off because of the impending marriage contrary to his preference, but still trying to keep a poker face. i wish i could have told him what was wrong, but then again, due to time contraints, the other 4 members shoot simultaneously as press my shutter. which leads me to the one-on-one shoot as planned... it never happen. again, due to constraints which is impossible given the time that we have. we also wasn't able to use the lightings because we don't have a lighting stand. the smoke machine which i'm most excited about was too lame, like someone just hitting a cigarette on the side of the model.

nonetheless, given all the rants, the experience was great. the members are very humble, which is re-assuring because there is no atmosphere intimidation. but the downside is, because most of us are newbies, this stopped us from making any comments for the betterment of the shoot. perhaps next time.

my shot's.

marrying peter pan

ramble: out of 68 shots, i've got only 8 decent shots.  comparred to 100++ and one 300++ shots the other member was able to take, it is quite depressing how come i've got only 68 shots.

faux action sampler.

hayyy. dreaming about lomo. wish i can afford the ever so expensive films and developing fee, so i can try photography on acid; where flaws are the most splendid thing and fun that equatesto "who the hell cares?!"

side note: how come expired films are more expensive than the new one?

here's my first 2 shots in lomography, my only shots in lomo, courtesy of bekah's holga-

sigh...

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3 sleeps to go... WEEEEEE!

who said i'm excited? the organizer just told me make a calling card for contacts and networking after the shoot .

5 sleeps to go!

wooo. excited na ako sa first ever fashion shoot ko. for P250, i can shoot 3 models in a wedding theme shoot in n.cemetery, complete with all the lighting stuff, plus wind blower and SMOKE MACHINE, ahhyyyy, can't wait for nov. 14 to come. the only problem is; i'm fantasizing about doing a glamour aka macabre aka romantic vibe or "GLAMACAROMATIC,"

mala:

and since i am an avid follower of ANTM, my fantasy includes gorgeous models at least 5'7 in height. however, my expectation fails me again. i asked the organizer and she said that the  bride was about 5'3, the bride's maid 5'6 who has a real sized body type- to be politically correct, and the male mod el as groom is only 19 years old- my newbie senses tells me that the main bride is too small, the bride's maid is, umh, ahhh, not ideal, and the groom is too young for this kind of shoot. but then again, sino ba ako para mag reklamo... and its P250, with all those equipments, the SMOKE MACHINE, perhaps i can do magic during the shoot.

luckily, the organizer allowed me to bring a model for the casual wear that i keep on insiting during the meeting (even now i'm wondering how  my passive and silent attitude can change to something being assertive and aggressive when it comes to photography), and Jona, my former classmate, assented to my request in just a single txt message.

luckily, lucky, luck, perhaps this is my day.and i want to push it... perhaps any willing professional models here? or do you want to be a model for a day? or  build your portfolio? or feeling model na lang :D, basta, gusto nyo?... msg nyo ako and there's more...

ria bolivar and agnes dean, if it might just happen that you read this article, pls pm me if your willing and available this nov 14

now... all i have is doubt. i'm doubting whether law school is really for me. i thought when i was kicked out in beda, all those epiphany of being fired-up to prove something that i don't deserve such brand, was just another senseless monologue, almost a joke. my midterm exams are bad. maybe i'm expecting too much from myself when i set my standard to be in the upper tier of the class. perhaps, a pride-complex that i carried when i was still in beda that bedans supposed to be better than students from other school.now, the hard facts are on my face, humiliating and frustrating at the same time. what i've done wrong in my exams... i don't know.
when my prof said that he was very frustrated with the result, he said something that made me think whether i should still continue this course. he said that some of us don't realize to be stupid enough in entering law school, and for those people, to re-consider their option and find something else where they think they could excel. at that time, i though he was referring/talking/semi-shouting at me.
...then suddenly, photography starts creeping again. i shut all my distractions before the sem starts, and now, i am here again in a same situation 1 year ago. argh! Drained and sabaw.

she would lie in the shore every morning

before the sun fully sets, while the mist makes everything obscure

she would lie in there as she would play in the waves

not, but as if like love

where more than anything she was accepted

with clothes on as if she was naked

and the cold caress

as if longing finally happen

and she would play there every morning

and everytime she fell in a dream

and wakes up near drowning

to her sorrow.

-the melancholy of backspace